When I was in university, I took some philosophy classes and I enjoyed it. A lot. Everything just clicked. And one of my philosophy profs noticed my, shall we say, “acumen,” in this area, so he took me aside and suggested I become a philosophy major. He said I was a “natural.”
Well, after the swelling in my head went down, I kept trying to picture myself as a philosopher.
“So, Dave, what do you do for a living?”
“Who me? Well, I’m a philosopher.”
“No, seriously, what do you do for a living?”
“I am being serious. I’m a philosopher!”
“No really, I want to know what you do for a liv-ing.”
I just couldn’t picture it. The only thing I could envision was, perhaps, teaching philosophy, which didn’t seem very exciting. But, later, I realized that the issue was more that I was afraid to commit to doing anything that seemed too, well, I suppose “responsible” is the right word. I was afraid to take my abilities seriously and put them to meaningful use. I was chicken.
And I see a lot of other people struggle with this same kind of thing. We doubt ourselves. We wonder if we’re strong enough or talented enough or smart enough, even when people affirm our strengths.
Moving forward isn’t so easy for some of us. To move forward, sometimes we have to let go of things we’ve been infatuated with for one reason or another. “I always wanted to be an astronaut but, for some strange reason, they just aren’t accepting 6 foot 7 English majors with no flight experience into the program!” And, ultimately, we have to be willing to try. As trite as it sounds, Yoda was wrong: if you want to do something, you need to try to do it. Maybe you aren’t smart enough or talented enough or responsible enough for some things, but you won’t know until you try. See what happens. Who knows, maybe you’ll discover that you aren’t cut out for some things. Big deal.
Then again. Maybe you’ll find out that there’s more to you than you thought.
“What would life be if we had no courage to attempt anything?”
Vincent van Gogh
Vincent van Gogh
1 Corinthians 14:12
Peace to you.
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